Mikie Draws

I’m losing focus.
I’m outta control
Outta control…

Need to keep my head in game
Not lose sight, keep up with my brain
Need to keep order
Avoid the chaos on the border
Gotta find my center
Go back; far as I can ‘member
I punched my wife
I kicked my dog
I slapped my kid
I threw the cat
I keyed the car
I torched the house
Cause I was so afraid of losing them all
I’m losing focus.
I’m outta control
Outta control…
I spayed my best friend
I slayed his girlfriend
I knocked down the neighbors door
Just to mention I heard him snore
I lost my key
But I found the floor
I threw out the manual
And there’s no going back
The wiring is funky
and goddamn it, I’m getting Chunky
I’m losing focus.
I’m outta control
Outta control…
I lied on my application
I cheated on the test
The dog ate my homework
But to be fair, I mixed it with his kibble
I made the trek through the snow
But I did it nice ‘n’ slow
I shot the sheriff, and with him, the deputy
I did all this and more, because of what I love to be
I’m losing focus.
I’m outta control
Outta control…

I’ve been fucked
and stuck
I’ve been Poked
and Broke
I’ve been bagged
and tagged
And all I wanna do is Cope,
Hope that this is a lie
That those words you Spoke
Really won’t make me die
I’ve been up
I’ve been down
I’ve done stepped up
I’ve been thrown to the ground
I’ve become irate
Within this fucked up state
Throw me on the slab
And begin to operate
Cause I’m sick in the head
And I need a cure.
I love you like I love stale doritos
Throw cheetos in your face
Like they’re some kinda mace
Maybe some sugar on the top
Easy Mac your cheesy ass
Or some ramen to make it last
I’m sorry I got a little hungry
But between I’scream and gettin creamed
I’m spittin a rhyme that’s just slightly off scheme
Now back to the point
I’ve been hip
I’ve been hot
I’ve been wack
Now I’m back
And my name is Mikie
Don’t mind if I add a little kool
Cause it’s time I took you back to school
So sit back in that bleacher
Here comes your favorite teacher
Here to say
I’ve become irate
Within this fucked up state
Throw me on the slab
And begin to operate
Cause I’m sick in the head
And I need a cure.
I saw you there
In my place
My space My weathered lair
Far, far down, deep in the
tombs of my mind
I witnessed you
You and your atrocities
And what you did to me
or what you were goin to do
I’ve lost feeling
No chance of healing
It’s Apparent
That your inherent
Defeat is appropriate
Within the Opiate
I’ve become irate
Within this fucked up state
Throw me on the slab
And begin to operate
Cause I’m sick in the head
And I need a cure
Cause one things for sure
Without it I’m dead

ewww i think i have a huge problem…
I hate having problems….
How to fix this one?
What do I do?
Do I talk about it?
Who would listen?
Who would care?
What about those who I can’t tell?
How will they react?
There aren’t many reasons
Why I can’t talk about something
So put 2 and 2 together
And one would assume
They’re the basis of assumption
So I can’t talk to them
At least not now.
What’s this that I feel?
Never been there before….
Tried to ignore
No real reason to feel it
Couldn’t be real
No, I shouldn’t be scared.
It’s intangible
So why?
Why does it bother me?
Because I’m just not sure
Not Sure
Not Sure
Not sure what I’m feeling.

I hear your voice
I hang on every mishapen word
As it falls from lips
They drip like acid
Burning deep into my soul
Like a ray of light piercing the darkness
One would say you are my light
Oh wouldn’t the be to my delight?
When surrounded by silence
I hear your voice in the distance
I close my eyes
An image of you there lies.
My constant through nothing
Through Everything
I am plagued by you
And I know it
My eyes fade to gray and lips turn blue
‘Cause I’m scared so much by the thought of it.
But I still have to ask
If even to bask
In the glory of absolution
The answer to my resolution
Are you real?
Am I meant to see you?
or are you just meant to be inside of me?
Something lying to torment me
No, you can’t be
you can’t be

I yawn

Yawn when the world looks like nothing at the dawn

Dawn of our future? Start of a new day?

Better call for a Suture, Your throats been slit today

What the fuck is all this for?

Walkin around like it’s still a bore

Little kid cryin on the street corner

Lookin for his mommy

I yawn.

Teenagers on the street corners

Wanna sell you a new hobby

Just like they did to little bobby

Poor kid never stood a chance

Wanted to mess with a little substance

When he was found full of harm

Needle still buried in his arm

I yawn

Little Debbie came to see me the other day

Told me one night she went to hit the hay

She heard a noise and awoke

Found her door had been broke

In the shadows there he stood

And he was up to no good

I yawn

An Arab walks down the street

Gets yelled at for “wearin a sheet”

He thought he could silently take the heat

Til it turned out he got his ass beat

7 pairs of shoes all stompin on his face

A memory he’ll never erase

I yawn

Racism flooding the gate

Everything fueled completely by hate

Everyone’s waiting to see if you take the bait

See how quick you become irate

I yawn

Apathy rules my life

Cause I’m in need of  no strife

No More Trouble for me

So hooray for apathy

I yawn

It’s simple thing to do

So easy to learn

Only care about you

and you’ll never get burned

When Practiced Dawn to Dawn

It’s so easy you see

I yawn

Now don’t you wanna be just like me?

People Dying overseas

Murder, Lies, and Controversies

Rape, Terrorism, Genocide

All the shit the world lets ride

I yawn

Now don’t you wanna be just like me?

War overseas

War on the streets

War against drugs

War against ideas

War against you and me

I yawn

Now don’t you wanna be just like me?

Spent my life blind

World came up from behind

Tried to ignore the problem

Thought someone else would solve them

So I yawned

World didn’t fix itself

Not even when little kid on the corner grew up

Little kid was just lookin for his mommy

When I yawned

It never even dawned

One day I’d be lookin back

Find everything he lacked

No morals and care for me

Lookin down at him

as he shot me

Now don’t you wanna be just like me?